this is real, this is me!

Regrets! I hate regretting my decisions, especially if I thought that this was one of the decisions where I have finally proved that i had guts!

Now here I am, treating the wound of the boomerang that has been hitting me since the 28th of November!!! Why a boomerang??!!! Ah well, if it isn't dear Ms. Thanges complaining again!

I wish i hadn't confessed! It was a relief when i did but now that the distance we had when you were leaving was so far, I have now come to believe what a stupid mistake i have made.

Why was it a mistake?

1. Because i was merely keeping up with the Joneses

2. Because it thought i,too, had something going on in my heart.

3. Because i saw no one else that i thought was serious enough\

4. Because i thought that i loved him. ( i cant believe i just wrote that)

5. Because i wanted to be different.

6. Because I WAS NOT MYSELF(clearly!!)

7. Because it is one mistake that i cannot mend.

So, what happens now??

I am going to be me! No more lies, no more cover ups, no more trying-to-be -someone-i'm-not. I AM NOT GOING TO CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME! I AM GOING TO HAVE FUN WITH MY FAMILY AND MY TRUE FRIENDS!!!!!

wooooooohooooooo!!! now that felt good!!

before i leave,:::

lame is what i used to be,

now i shall not become,

game is what i intend to see,

now i am gonna play, so here i come!!!!!