I'm on the path of Glory! ;)

It has been a while since  I last wrote. Ah well..a lot of things have happened between the time when I last wrote and now. 

This is my first time experiencing Summer in Amerika (yes, the 'k' is on purpose). I can't say the same about the weather though since it even snowed on May 2nd. Nevertheless, this semester has proven to be very thought-provoking and productive than I ever expected. Nine credits is no joke during summer semester. All three classes are my core Bio classes that I initially thought would screw up my summer. I was so wrong.

Have you ever underestimated yourself to a point where complacency becomes the strong foundation of your mediocre achievements? You think you can do it and as the task at hand draws closer in time, the passion or interest to do well, slowly and silently starts fading away. Your motivation that you can once do it now turns into "Well, at least I tried." But you know you were not even close to trying enough. 

Then the moment of revelation kicks in. When you realize you might as well, learn something for the pure reason of increasing your knowledge than to score in exams. I have always knew this fact but always thought it was my way of inviting complacency to dinner. Education, I believe, is destroyed when exams come into play. Too bold of a statement, eh? Fuck it. 

I, for one, do not see the point in scoring well for exams when you don't even know what you are learning or more importantly, what are you learning for! If you want create an education system that molds the best brains and make them compete, might as well tie leaches on them and put them in a horse race. Education is about going beyond what you already know. When you are fed with information, you tend to store it in your brain for the most opportune moment----THE EXAM! Ape kes lah wei...seriously!?

You might think this post is a post-exam kolaveri that I am going through after getting bad grades for a recent exam. You might think I am being ridiculous and I know I am. But guess what.. I dont think I am going to care about what you think. lol..i wish i could sound more polite with that last sentence but that is just how it is lah wei! haha...

Truth is, I just scored an awesome score for an exam that I barely studied for. (There she goes boasting). It was freaking Microbiology and not studying is a definite No-No for many of my peers but that is what happened to me. This class is one of my most interesting classes ever. Only because it made me learn so many new things. Let me clarify that it did not require much attention on my part...BUT just curiosity. Curiosity was the main reason I listened in class. I wanted to know why what happened when and where. Pure curiosity is what drove me in that class. Trust me when I say I am no budak pandai (intelligent person) and my mother can confirm that with an official seal by adding that I am only very good in talking..ah well..at least I did inherit something from her.. hehe.

I believe when it comes to an exam, studying a day before to memorize facts and numbers can only take you so far but listening in class and asking the right questions(or even stupid ones) to quench your curiosity will and can take you further in your learning journey....or exams (if that is what you still want to root for). You have the right to what you learn. You decide what you want to clarify. You decide if you want to continue reading that same bloody page or turn to the next.

Be true to yourself. Make sure you know what you're reading. Your brain deserves that respect from you for making you avoid life-threatening instances like when your hand voluntarily withdraws when in contact with something hot or sharp. By skimming and flipping through pictures, you are doing no justice to yourself. Coming back to the issue of exams, I, of course, do get the fact that we need qualified professionals with good grades to take over an organization but the sad fact is that the purpose to educate has fused with the purpose of gaining money. Ah well...then again..money is everything.

Gotcha! lol... I speak for myself here when I say money is everything but is also NOT everything. In this rat race, everybody is losing their individuality...what values to them most..things like that.It is again depressing to see what students nowadays value are a certificate full of As, a trophy, a new gadget and the like. What happened to the idea of coming to school as a clean slate to fulfill your purpose in life? When I say purpose, don't think I'm referring to the norm of grades, job, family... but more of the purpose of finding and creating yourself to fulfill God's mission that has been bestowed on you. 

Enough with the sneering. I know I am no sage but I believe everyone on this Earth is here for a reason. Until you finish that mission, you will still be alive. This might hurt many parents who want to see their child do big things and get big bucks but they should know that they might be depriving a a child of their life's purpose. Here, I would like to thank my parents for giving me the freedom (with conditions) and criticisms to let me find my own path of glory..hahah...sounds a bit too far-fetched eh...but I cannot think of a better word than glory folks! hehe.. 

True enough, I might be on the wrong path...who knows..but at least I am making full use of this journey via education. Learning about simple things like manners, courtesy, the precision needed to use a Pipette, what does Clostridium tetani do, how to beat my mum at her chicken curry and the the like. All this simple things not only create moments in our lives  but memories that we can come back to. 10 years from now, I don't want to say anything that indicates regret because the moment has already past and there's no point whining about it,sistahh!

Look at me now. What did I start talking about and where am I now? lol..digression..my biggest asset. Ah yes, education. This is just some of the things that I am going to always rant about because I doubt change is around the corner for ideas like this. I am just going to continue doing what I do best..learning while trying to inspire others to follow their paths of glory..Hey you may never know, we might cross each others' paths at some point in time...!

So until that happens, I'll see ya around then!!

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what you say 

what you know

did it all make you grow

wait a while and think it slow

change is sure going to follow.

Nalla irre!

ps: thanks to  Jasina, Hema & Divwya for having faith in my abilities. <3

Superhuman

Sometimes I wonder what keeps me going. Really. I have been pushing myself to use more than 10 % of my brain since this American experience dawned on me. It has been really rewarding to see and learn my potentials and realize that I am no superhuman. BUT since two years ago, I have realized that becoming superhuman takes practice.

I am a superhuman now.

But then again, my definition of superhuman might differ or vary from yours. To me, being superhuman is about accepting your strengths and rising potentials while acknowledging the many flaws that one has with the passion of improving it to a better state. To do this, I am not afraid of falling down because I know I have the courage and patience to pick myself up. being superhuman to me is also about living for yourself by living for others. I want to be there for everyone I love when they need me or need help in general or just BE THERE. My two hugest assets in life are my familiy and friends. We cannot chose family but I turn out to have an awesome one. Friends..well...they rock my world. Well, that is my definition of being superhuman.

You see, many people find different things that matters to them. One man's meat is another man's poison, they say. Very true. Until you find what truly makes you happy, you will never be satisfied with life. But to find what makes you happy is the essence of the superhuman journey. I am still discovering the many things in life that make me happy and this journey is never over until my last breath leaves my body. That is the best part I feel. There is so much more waiting for me out there; good and bad; they both make me. If they break me, I will find new wings to get up and fly again. It is easier said than done, I know. But try practicing what you preach, and it can be easy one way or the other.

Always keep your options open. When you close your mind to one path, how would you ever notice the crack on the side door that holds a whole new world? If you only notice, all the answers are actually out there, you just have to remember to open your heart and mind along with your eyes. At this very moment, I am supposed to be studying for an exam and starting a paper that is due tomorrow but all this revelation of the superhuman journey that i am experiencing is forcing me to make this moment count by documenting my emotions on mr.spidey's "saliva". Exams, papers, they come and go but moments they never come back.

so..

MAKE EVERY MOMENT COUNT.


Procrastination is my middle name
that i seldom realize
but the clock is now ticking
the remaining time will surely suffice