It is raining on the inside!!!!!!

It has been a while since I have said anything here and it has made me realize how so many things have changed!

1. I have been elected the President of the International Student Council of Washington State University. It was an awe-inspiring and embarrasing moment that I cried while giving my speech and moved some of the council members that I was supposed to influence. Well, I also realized that I have a great team!

2. Spring break:

• I missed my flight to LA. I cried and wanted to blame Him but did not because something told me that I shouldn't as everything happens for a reason. And it did! I paid an extra $150 to take the next flight to LA thanks to an angel named, Ivi, who was sent down by Him to help me! (I do not wish to bore this area by spilling the details of the events that made me miss my flight) Anyways, that incident, confirmed the theory : EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON!
• I fell down while riding a bike after many years, in the streets of LA and now have a blue-black knee! hahah!
• I recorded two songs with Carishma and it was an awesome experience!!! one song is up on youtube and has been receiving good responses while the other video is up for editing and will be posted soon, I HOPE!
• Spending my days in Kj's, Renu's and Carishma's home made me feel good after 3 months of living with me,myself and I.
• I am back now in Pullman and it just snowed for 15minutes before the Sun came out immediately to melt it ALL off.

I am very tired!

Myself aside, I have been hoping matters in Japan have been changing for the betterment of their citizens! Not only does this natural disasters crush the economic development of their nation but also their self esteem! After all their hard work of building a life, it is sad to see them see their life's go away with Earth's unpredictable shakes of warning! It makes me wonder what wrong have the innocent Japanese done to deserve such an aftermath. Then I wonder what has God have in store for us, the living ones, who are left here to deal with more events like this.

And guess what? I HAVE STOPPED WONDERING! I would rather continue living like every other day than to just waste my self-esteem on thinking of dooms's day! There are many things life has got to offer. I do not see the need of wondering now! Everything happens for a reason. I have been surviving quite well with all these things. I am just sad that I have not made any effort to fix my guitar. I will do it soon and bring it with me when I go back home this summer. I will be dancing again for the International Education Week opening but this time for 15minutes. Like all the other things I do, I have no idea how I am going to succeed at this! But I couldn't care less because through out my 8 months here, I am only satisfied if I have a good climb. Whether the destination holds good or bad things for me, I don't mind at all. After all, what is life, if you expect all good things!

I was speaking to my father yesterday and we were doing the usual arguing before he shocked me with his wave of electrons! I was telling him about the way I look at matters these days. I said I will always smile at anything that happens, instilling a positive vibe in my head. Then the tsunami came! He said, "You can't always be positive, Thanges. You will get hurt and fall. Don't give me this Malaysia Boleh thing" Wow! I was stunned and told him, "WHATTTTTTTTT???? STOP IT! STOP IT WITH YOUR NEGATIVITY! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?" And as we all would predict, he let out his usual chuckle of defeat ( I hope). I told him if I fall, I will get up and move on lah!!! Then, thanks to Skype's awesome reputation, we had to end the conversation. I cannot wait to get back to Kampung Dhoby and give Col (Dr) Paleswaran Rajah RTD, a piece of my mind! Do all of you, adults think like this? If so, YOU ALL soooooooo need a big piece of my mind.

I do not see the reason of not moving on after anything that happens badly to myself! There are so much of things that life has got to offer and the demise of my awesome Biology lecturer at a tender age of 26, due to cancer had made me appreciate my life even more! He had a great life from the way I saw it. He was a sport during every event in INTEC and I would never have guessed his profession to be that of a teacher. But he was and a brilliant one too! I miss him a lot, even though I have not seen him in a long time.

Moving on, I am excited to start my term as ISC's president because I have finally given myself a good platform to become a leader. I am currently in pursuit of developing my ethos before I get back to Malaysia for good in 2013. I was very happy with the support from my friends and my family but only God knows of their reactions when I come back home with my ideals and ideas to make a difference. I know I have my back. That is all I need.

It is raining outside. And it is raining inside too!

Content is what I feel,

Fulfilled is what I am,

At the moment,

I am raining on the inside!

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CULTURE-SHOCKED?

Unlike the last semester, time has been flying so fast that I always seem to be surprised that its Friday again. I am experiencing a culture shock at the moment. Not with America but with myself. Suddenly, I am all pumped up to finish my homework. Suddenly, I have interest in getting good grades. Suddenly, I realized that I wanted to finish my homework so badly as compared to when I was in Intec, where I would just wait for Hema or Divwya to do it and then I would just copy. Now, I wanted to do it myself! Many questioned my decision of applying to WSU when everyone else applied to Penn State, Rutgers and RIT but I wanted to prove to people that I can live without anyone's help. To be honest, I just wanted to impress people with my decision and never thought of how I would end up here being the only girl alongside 3 other guys. My first semester in Pullman tested me a lot in ways that I have never thought of and I didn't learn any lessons from them. Now Spring, on the other hand, did worse but with good side effects.

My week goes by with a 9am, 11am, 1pm and 3pm class on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays and with 10am, 1pm and 4pm class on Tuesdays and Thursdays. On Wednesdays, however, I have a lab that goes from 7pm to 10pm. Besides that, I, now do not have internet in my apartment, so I am practically walking back home when the CUB( the place where I use the Wireless) closes at 2am. This routine has been going on for a month now and it is slowly CHANGING me! Last Thursday was the indicator. I had a take-home exam for my gender class that costs 150 points that was due on Friday, I had Genetics Quiz and Speech quiz on Friday, my written lab report (from Wednesday night) was due on Friday and to top it all off, I had my 2nd Physics Test that day. I have not started on any of those and Thursday came to me like a hurricane. I did not sleep that night and worked on my gender essay that took 12 pages. With no internet from 2am till morning, I had to manually find points from a book that we were supposed to read( i obviously didn't). Surprisingly, I managed to finish 7 out of the 8 essay questions before rushing for shower and heading to the CUB again at 7.20am. Once there, I quickly checked my points with the book's review summary on Google and completed the essay and printed a magnificent 12 page essay. I was not sleepy! (yet)

Then, I had this master plan of how the day was going to run and I FOLLOWED the way it went by dedicating the hour before each class with studying for my Physics test, finishing my lab report, reading up for my Genetics and Speech quiz and occasionally breathing if time permits. hahah!!! The weird part of all this frenzy was that I was excited! I was in the excitement of trying to complete this race by 5pm on Friday! Lord, was I happy when I finally turned in my lab in the pigeon-holed cabinets in the Physics building! PHEW!!!! A BIG PHEW PLUS A SMILE CAME ONTO MY FACE!! Then, I realized I had to go to University of Idaho for the Dance for Justice- a 9-hour dance marathon dedicated to raising money to fight human trafficking under the International Justice Mission. Thanks to Michelle and Rachel for giving me a ride there and for making me laugh so hard that I forgot about that day's fiasco! I dance and danced and watched others dance and had a good time in University of Idaho! I came back home like a zombie with no sleep for three days and knocked out on my bed till 3pm the next day( Saturday).

Hell of a week! Also, I forgot to mention that I have applied to become one of the Executives of the International Student Council and will be running for presidency. I know its a lot to handle but I will never EVER refuse a chance or opportunity that can make me a better leader. I have been leading through a lot of things in my life and out of Malaysia, I was just curious to know if I can still lead with non-Malaysians effectively. The elections is on 10th of March and hopefully all ends well. If I don't get the job, it does not mean that I am less of a leader but merely means that I am still in the process of becoming one! ISC will still see me around in their activities as you know how fast I get bored with academics! haha! I have also decreased my visits to Cjs just because I have so much of homework to finish. My arms are getting very sore in swing dancing while my knees are turning color in modern dance! ah well, everything comes with a price.

I am looking forward to this weekend because I will be in LA baby!!!!!! haaah!!!!! and the best part of that is spending time with my bestie, Carishma Menon whom I just can't wait to start my gossiping with! I have been out of the bubble for what has been happening in Malaysia because of all this drama and will get back on my political wheel, maybe in the next post! I have some weird Writing presentation and a Genetics test on Thursday with another speech on Friday before Spring Break starts. I need to get my guitar fixed so badly that I am still playing him with 5 strings ,just to get him to talk'. haha!!!! Till next week,....

Running, running and still running,

Many just look ahead,

Running, running and still running,

I smell the flower along the side and pin them on my head.

As you run and run and keep running,

Don't ever forget what's around you,

For as you run and run and keep on running,

You might lose track of the world that has given birth to you.